the lost man chronicles
55. cognitive breakdown

"My mind is a raging torrent,
flooded with rivulets of thought,
cascading into a waterfall
of creative alternatives."
~ Hedley Lamarr, Blazing Saddles,
Andrew Bergman
& Mel Brooks

There is a marvelous phenomena that one experiences when she is under the influence of THC. I call it—"cognitive breakdown."

Usually, we think and express ourselves without really thinking about the constructs, ideas, idioms, clichés and common phrases we are using in the process of communication.

After lighting up and "inhaling" though, that usual unencumbered process breaks down, as you begin to analyze what you recall to be the meaning of each word and combination thereof to be, and ultimately signify as it relates to your fast and furious fleeting thoughts of the moment. Often at this juncture one begins to question whether or not you actually can draw out the right words to convey your liberated thoughts, supersensory experiences or epiphanies.

You realize how trite your usage of language is and ponder its futility, often to the detriment of everyone else's understanding of what you are blabbering, even if it all makes "perfect sense" to you, a perfect sense that is sensed to be more perfect than ever before.

Moreover, the breakdown incurs on your articulative flow as well, because you find yourself compelled to fly off on tangents that elaborate on the profound significance of each turn-of-phrase.

Sometimes, it gets worse when an original, droll or profound quip trips you up with an ensuing awe of your spontaneous creativity. It is then that you have to dwell for a moment in praise of the phrase, further propelling you off-track.

At other times, the stopgap treasures cumulate to contrive a moment of frustration, as you frantically attempt to regain control of your mind, trying to find either the reason you began the whole lengthy monologue, so that you can devise a turning point where you can suavely fold your soliloquy back in and bring it full-circle.

The experience is almost as if you are losing yourself in a labyrinth of your own mental gestation, and the reconnecting point is the rebirth. It is a splenderific phenomena to experience, one which truly brings so many things into and out of the normal realm of perspective.

"Researchers have discovered that chocolate produces some of the same reactions in the brain as marijuana. The researchers also discovered other similarities between the two but can't remember what they are." ~ Matt Lauer

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